70% of freshers think about quitting their first job within the first few months.
I’m not sure that stat is accurate. But, I would’ve proudly represented that 70%.
This month, I completed one year at Ditto Insurance. And saying that out loud still feels a little unreal. Because not too long ago, I was sitting in my room, overthinking every tiny detail of my day, wondering if I had made the wrong decision… and quietly planning my exit.
From B.Tech to… Insurance?
I come from a B.Tech background. The kind where you’re expected to code, debug, and at least pretend you understand what’s happening on GitHub.
Except I didn’t. So like every confused engineering graduate, I pivoted. First into content. Then somehow into insurance. And when I say “somehow,” I really mean it.
When I joined, I didn’t just lack knowledge. I lacked context. I didn’t understand the product, the industry, or even the conversations happening around me.
It felt like I had joined a show in season three, while everyone else had watched it since the pilot.
The Part No One Warns You About
Your first job isn’t hard because of the work. It’s hard because of what’s happening inside your head.
You think everyone else has it figured out. You hesitate before asking questions because you don’t want to sound stupid. You reread messages five times before hitting send. You overthink everything.
And somehow, it still feels like it’s not enough.
It’s like being in The Office. Except you’re not watching the awkwardness. You are the awkwardness. And everyone else seems way more put together than you feel. Spoiler. They’re not.
But when you’re new, it really feels like you’re the only one struggling.
The “I Should Probably Quit” Era
A couple of months in, I genuinely thought about quitting. Not because I didn’t want to work. But because I didn’t feel like I deserved to be there.
Every task felt heavier than it should. Every piece of feedback felt personal. Every mistake felt like proof that I didn’t belong.
It wasn’t burnout. It was self-doubt.
And self-doubt is dangerous because it doesn’t push you to leave the job. It slowly disconnects you from your own potential.
What Changed (Spoiler: Nothing Dramatic)
There was no breakthrough moment. No sudden clarity. No main character montage where everything suddenly made sense.
If anything, the shift was slow. Almost invisible.
I started asking questions instead of pretending I understood everything. I stopped taking feedback as criticism and started seeing it as direction. I focused less on being perfect and more on just being consistent. And most importantly, I kept showing up. Even on days when I felt like I wasn’t doing enough. Even on days when I felt like I didn’t belong.
Things didn’t suddenly become easy. But they became manageable.
And then, slowly, they started making sense.
The People Who Made This Year Possible
I genuinely could not tell this story without talking about the people around me.
My managers, who gave honest feedback but never made me feel small. My teammates, who turned into friends, made it easier to ask for help without overthinking it. And my friends outside work, who listened to my 2 a.m. spirals and reminded me that one bad day doesn’t equal a failed life.
If this year taught me anything, it’s this: Growth may be personal. But it is never individual.
The Growth That Doesn’t Get Posted
We love celebrating big milestones. But no one talks about the smaller ones that actually build you.
The first time you understand something faster. The first time you don’t panic when given a new task. The moment something that once overwhelmed you starts to feel… normal.
This kind of growth is quiet. No applause. No announcement. No LinkedIn post. Just you, slowly becoming better without even realizing it.
And Then… Life Did Its Full Circle Thing
Recently, I was awarded the Marketing Maverick Award.
And in that moment, everything came back. The confusion. The self-doubt. The version of me who almost quit. Because the person standing there was the same one who had once questioned whether she even belonged in the room.
And that’s what made it special. I didn’t become extraordinary overnight. I just didn’t leave when it was easier to.
What This Year Actually Taught Me
I’m still the same 24-year-old who sometimes feels like life is a race, and I’m slightly behind.
That hasn’t magically changed. But I am also more patient. More confident. And a lot more stable than I was a year ago.
And if I could go back and say something to my two-month-into-the-job self, it would be this: You are not behind. You are just new. Nobody knows what they’re doing at the beginning. Confidence comes after you keep showing up, not before. You don’t need to have everything figured out right now.
And most importantly: Don’t make permanent decisions based on temporary feelings.
If You’re Thinking About Quitting Right Now
If you’re in that phase, the overthinking, the self-doubt, the constant questioning, I get it more than I can explain.
But what you’re feeling might not be failure.
It might just be the beginning of growth that hasn’t revealed itself yet. Because here’s the truth: Growth does not feel like growth when you’re in it. It feels like confusion. It feels like doubt. It feels like showing up anyway.
And one day, without realizing when it happened, you look back… And you realise you made it through.
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